Trials

Have you ever stepped out of your own personal little life and just looked at what everyone else is going through? I have never asked why for any of my trials, I simply look back at them after I am finished with a particular trial and think, I'm really glad I went through that, or, sometimes even, thank you for that trial. I'm not going through anything majorly particular right now, just headaches, feeling really tired all the time even though I get plenty of sleep, and feeling nauseas when I wake up in the morning for no apparent reason. I see my roomate's trial, of work, of dating while having a boyfriend about to go on a mission, it's just kind of complicated and it isn't a very easy problem that can be solved with a right or wrong answer, it's something that she needs to do, not something that she can be told to do and it may or may not be necessarily right for her. (A run-on, I know, but that pretty much describes the turmoil of trials and decisions). Another roomate has been interviewing all over the place to get a month long job to help her to pay tuition for school in New York. Pink Emmers is struggling with finding a job as well. Little Finger Sucker (she just turned 17) has been so disappointed with the fact she won't be able to dance for a show she's been working really hard at, because her doctor won't let her, with a leg related injury.

I think it's when I look at other people that I wonder why they have to havae certain things happen to them. I can handle trials myself, but to watch them suffer, to have something that only they can do, is hard for me to accept, I believe. Maybe that's supposed to be a trial for me, to watch other people endure theirs. Profound, isn't it? I guess since I'm not taking classes, I have to do something somewhat hard.