So, I am the sister of Compulsive Indecision. Yes, my boyfriend recently broke up with me. I guess it's not that recent, since it was almost three weeks ago, but it still hurts a little bit, more like an ache that gradually lessens. Given, we had only been dating for 26 days, but we saw each other every day. We even spent a weekend together in Las Vegas, no we did not get married and my brother and his wife and other people were there to "supervise" as they would so kindly put it.
Sometimes I wake up feeling sorry for myself, and then I look outside and I see the sun shining, and realize how happy I am and how lucky I am to be here on this earth with so many people that love me. Well, except that today is cloudy and overcast and somewhat depressing, but I'll probably just watch a movie or do some work I know I should do but would rather choose not to do.
I know that someone else will come along and sweep me off my feet, and who knows, maybe tomorrow will be the day I meet another person that will mean so much to me. I'm taking it a smile at a time. What has been helpful to me, is knowing that the world is not going to end. There will be another day. Another guy. He is beginning to move on, and that is so reassuring to me, to know that he has found some happiness, that I've allowed myself to have some of my own. Obviously music has been a huge help, listening to some good break-up songs, and Compulsive Indecisions' s homemade cookies.
So, life goes on and there is sunshine in my soul today. I don't regret the experience I had with my first boyfriend, as I was also his first, which is something we will always share, and I want to be there to always support him, since he is one of my best friends and knows things no one else in this world knows. I wouldn't give up that for anything.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
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